How's everyone?
No warrants yet for piracy
Baby is due May 22. So it's getting close. Gonna get married May 2nd. Just got my own place, she's moving in once we are married. Gonna be cutting it close, and I'm not happy about living alone until then, but what can happen do.
I landed a pretty sweet job. Factory job, still in the steep learning curve, but I enjoy it. 12 hour shifts, so I always get 8 hours of overtime on one check, and have good insurance. I really enjoyed building cabinets in Florida with my grandpa, but between the board and myself, the money just wasn't there. 10 an hour cash, untaxed, but often was only getting paid for 30 hours a week. Granted, that's what we worked, and I enjoyed the hell out of it, I can't work and raise a family for McDonald's money. I don't want her to have to work, and with the job I have now, I can financially support us. I love my grandpa, and feel the money would be great in 5, 10 years, but I have to live for now. These first few years of being married/new baby, are crucial.
I don't love Tennessee. I'd rather be in Florida. Say what you will, but at the end of the day, it's all about the money. If I cannot support my family, or even myself for that matter, then I'm selling myself short.
Super bummed I can't do Carolina Rebellion or Tremonti in Nashville. The timing and money just isn't good right now, I haven't had stable income in a while, so I'm behind on baby stuff, bills, etc. Still playing catch up.
Never realized how much it took just to survive. Some days I don't have much food, some days I have to use napkins for toilet paper. I have a crappy car, and all used or hand me down possessions. I envy people with money. I hope to have a lot of money to have nice things one day. But, it all comes with time, and I understand that.
I don't drive fast anymore, I don't smoke weed anymore, I haven't hung out with a bad egg in a long long time. I really am growing up. Previously, I was a sleep till noon kind of guy. Now, I wake up at 4:15am, and drive an hour one way to work, work from 6:30am-6:30pm, half the week, and am not whining and complaining about it like I used to would have. Used to, my work money would go to fines. Now, I'm out of the system, but all my money goes to bills. It's always in the back of my head that I've never, ever, went "shopping" or out to buy stuff, etc, but it is what it is. I grew up less than middle class, and through the years have learned and seen and can now understand that I was always given the best my family could offer me. I appreciate my family.
My biggest life regret Id say, wasn't the jail, or the fines, or the drugs, but my sitting alone in my room for so many years. My dad hasn't worked in a few years, I've been bitter that it's been up to my mom to support us, but looking back, speaking two words to my dad and mom on a regular frequent basis, makes me cry. I tried to grow up too fast. Granted, I'm almost 21, I still wasted a lot of time that I wish I had back. Not one single Call of Duty match, or hours of Zelda and Mario, was worth losing out on precious minutes with my parents. Wish I could take all that back and just sit on the couch with them for hours and talk and watch tv, but hey it is what it is. They're still relatively young, and have a lot to offer my soon to be wife and their grandson. They're only 40 and 37, so, still some youth left.
Anyways, sorry for the short novel. If you read, thanks
